
| 8/17/09 deleted the old journals, I feel like spewing a small part of my thoughts here. is it creativity? am i even capable, someone, i need to save myself,or do i need to kill myself i dont know which, but doing both at the same time is hard, i am being devoured repressed mirrored erased impressed made mute, i can almost feel the stitches from each corner of my mouth, my soul, i am encased in BLACK VARNISH gutted forgotten broken built up confused i am killing killing killing myself. i am kidding myself. 8/20/09 better, sorry i made you worry mommy. vindicated, dangerous, pages we are close to being the same on. 8/22/09 feels like my stomach is full of blood. 9/5/09 ohhhhh my ear. it looks crazy. 4 more days till nine. im very excited. need to learn french. sharing room with erin now. tina is home. my chemically imbalanced brain is making up excuses to go crazy. ohhhhhh every little thing I do is a conflict. well, look on the bright side, it's never boring when there is a fight going on. 9/26/09 hey i saw 9 again yesterday. I should've held his hand in hopes that i could keep him here in this life but i didn't. i just. forgot. uuggggh. what can i do to keep him alive and happy? some things are in our control and some things aren't. unfortunantly for me i have a hard time deciphering stuff like that since im crazy. I think kit and kain are dying more and more the more I try to hide them from tina. I dont know what to do. ___________________________________ DON'T TRUST ANYONE. |
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